Me, the damaged body Brenda. Me, the solopreneur, climbing my own ladder. Me, the Empty Nest Mom, alone and finding new. Me, the trainer wanting more challenges.

The big question is…what do I want? Where do I really want to go?

I do feel my answers need to include income. But just tonight I realized what if I simply listed what I super duper enjoy and want to be, have and do and if it doesn’t include income why stress?

Haha, because we all need money to live. Many of us want to grow. We want to personally develop ourselves into our own greatness.

I don’t really feel I’m contributing to this world if I don’t grow and develop into more continually.

I despise being sedentary. An occasional day or two for an intense rest but sedentary is not for me!

I want to HEAL. I want to physically get strong. I want to grow my income to 10 times what it is. I want to visit my children at any time I choose.

I want to travel to all the state parks in the US. I want to own a house even though I thought I did not. I want to buy my mom a house.

So many things I want to do. I seem to be in a conundrum of lonliness because finding someone to share my joy and grow with me is scarce!

I hear the journey to the top is very lonely so I must remember that I’m no different than anyone else and this is a journey I am going through.

The amount of growth I’ve experienced since even July of this year is phenomenal. So I must push for my #impossiblegoals and see what life is like on the other side.

I feel the Empty Nest version of me is at a fork in the road, as is the trainer in me. I feel excitement about becoming an entrepreneur over a solopreneur. I feel excitement about creating a online program that will help thousands of people simplify the human basics to weight management and help them start enjoying life as they move toward their happy maintenance!

I feel excitement at visiting my adult children each time I “want” to and I feel excitement thinking about my mom having a place of her own!

I’m super excited to get some of my pain under control and even reversed! I’m ready to become a new person.

I keep hearing that when life feels like a super ball of mess as if it was about to all crumble is exactly when you’re about to have a growth spurt!

So let’s do it!

Let this be my record of intent!